Just over here listening to the windchimes in the backyard; remembering this is two years of BUFO, two years of big-growth, love, bufo-church progress and so.much.more….

Mostly writing because I want to thank you for being and sharing your trust with me..  Every part of *we* which shows up for this experience, I'm grateful for.  If you’re willing to keep reading, I’ll just share from my heart and also give a little insight to whatever directionality I, Ashley, has control of. x

I've been asked by the moment over and over to stay openhearted AND to have discernment -big time- 

I’ve succeeded but on the way to this success, I've failed, a lot, and in the last two years as much as I have failed, the constant has ALWAYS been the continuous draw towards love.  

That "always, in all ways, Love’ kind-of KNOWING/FEELING. 

I got so caught-up recently in the "everything that needs fixing" part of my life I've developed a level of seriousness only brillo, a tank of vinegar or a swift push off a boat into very deep salt water could scrape off.  So I sit in the medicine, and I remember the perfection in the imperfection, including my imperfect self. I surrender to what is and the expansive quality of enthusiasm a little more, and I remember how temporary the moment is. A gift!!

SO-HA! we find ourselves again chuckling at our character, playing-pretend “oh look at me, a distinguished human in complete control” of life... ohhahahaha 

OR we remember we all will one day die, and we begin to truly live, play, breathe, in Trust.

Okay enough metaphysical philosophical mashed potatoes (we can only eat so much in one sitting anyway.)  I'm here because I love you, as hard or easy as it is sometimes to love and let go, we oh so miraculously do.  We do so love so. We do the hard thing over and over and over again. 

I'm also here because, if you asked me (EXACTLY) two years ago I'd be this devoted to something(ANYTHING) I would have laughed and said "ME,?! Ha! "  But here the fuck I am still serving Bufo, and it's still wild, hard, beautiful and really, really real. 

I've seen yall scream, cry, love, orgasm, puke, pee, shit, fall asleep, wake up, get naked, get mad, get happy, and sing as if you had the lungs of an actual angel, (oh wait you do!) and mostly, simply, remember that you are, in-fact, just perfect.  You have given me (a mere observer) of the human experience SUCH RICHNESS to the texture of love and life and death, I feel as if I've lived a thousand years. 

AND HERE IS MY LOVE LETTER TO YOU.

Thank you for trusting me.  Thank you for trusting the medicine, for trusting your personal story and drama in this life and for giving me that brief moment of co-journeying with you. As long or as short as our relationship is, or will be, it was perfect. Whether expectations are met or not.  We do hard things carefully AND together.  Sometimes we forget we are here for eachother.

I wanted to write this to you because, I love what I do, and it's also the hardest thing I've ever done, (besides being a mom), ya’ know wearing your heart outside of your body oh so vulnerably for everyone to see fallibility, a real human, seeing/projecting onto their mirror.  Over and over. A. HUGE. GIFT. And none of this would have been possible without your willingness and your curiosity.

Love you into that beyond, that Truth that the same beautiful universe exists behind each of our eyes.

-Ashley

AND P.S. LASTLY I'D LIKE TO SHARE...

• all ceremonies going forward for ya’ll are $400, anyplace DFW

• All first-time ceremonies will continue to be $500.

• Remember I serve Kambo, the peptide cocktail (just ask)

• Stamets-stacks a month supply is $40.

• Starting January 2024 I will be offering more community gatherings,
  but for now please stay tuned!

If you want to connect on any level, send me a few words.